Teach Me The Ways Of You.

To understand you requires time I must set aside. Placing you at the focus of my  hunger I’m eager to devour, the relentless nights I’m overthinking of conditioning your love with saturated tenderness lingering beneath my toughness. Teach me the ways of you, the truth in loving you, strengthening my purpose and needing you more than self. Teach me the ways of your laughter, producing tears of happiness I’ve held for so long in fear of releasing. Teach me the ways of loving you, earning every incentive of kissing you honestly, memorizing the details making up the incredible I see within you.

Teach me…… I want that A+

– C.A. Thomas

Never Believed In Goodbye

Goodbyes are what I say if I’m no longer in the presence of who stands before me. A goodbye I establish with a shoulder overthrown as steps trail away from a reason no longer worth losing sleep over. I say goodbye for reasons even I may not interpret or understand at the time of an already made decision. As time and maturity have consumed me goodbyes have now become the normal, having faith in realizing the importance of life continuing to move as I should always practice. Once upon a time I never believed in goodbye…….. that upon a time was once ago I did not fully understand.

I understand now.

– C.A. Thomas

Entertain (No Longer Fun)

Entertaining starts out fun in the beginning. Ideas rise, excitement brings forth opportunities leading possibly to amazing scenarios and situations. Long conversations, unlimited texts, discovering new thoughts of hesitant action slowly unfolding in the midst of entertaining another. Soon the entertaining becomes a likable trait, hopeful in asking the once playful thought which occurs numerously out on a date to see if that spark of interest will continue….. it doesn’t. The ambition to entertain now lacks the courage to no longer pursue the drive once controlling the feeling of emotion. Entertaining used to be fun…… just not for me anymore.

– C.A. Thomas

What Is It?

What is it about us that separates our genius, our brilliance from the rest of the world? What is it that causes us to write such things that exemplifies a portion of our feelings, a near perfect description gliding the corners of a blank sheet? Is it love that enables us to reach higher platforms of trying, excelling beyond the dream filled with certainty? Is it inspiration that focuses our heart to inspire others in becoming the best version of themselves to witness? Or maybe we’re all of these questions filled with all the love we never knew were already there.

Remember to ask yourself this question when you feel alone in this world….. “What is it?”………. You’re it.

– C.A. Thomas

Marriage

Forever, is it truly long as the anticipation grows of waking up next to you? The exchanging of vows and rings for a gentle reminder of what we’re promising each other? Are we truly promising to uplift one another for better or worse, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer as long as we both shall “live”? Or are these very words sounding so gentle, so nurturing expressed in awing an audience to commemorate this very day through many aspects of memoirs to surface? A commitment, a responsibility, a promise or an oath possibly we could interpret. Spending our lives together, learning one another, understanding each other is all I ever could fathom…… no matter how marriage is defined, we define us.

– C.A. Thomas

Outer Shell (Opinions Of Others)

If I could step out of my own skin I would carefully observe the very details of myself. Beginning with the way I walk, such a pigeon I stumble over the simplest uneven areas that even an architect overlooks. My grammar follows, pronouncing the finest words to ever grace the pages of a dictionary in fine print. To speak with such intelligence, with character and diligence leaving it impossible for anyone forgetting my presence. Physical attributes are shifting, eye sight becoming more blurred as the weight of my 5’10 balance  adjusting in the 200s. Instructing myself on eating healthier, exercising regularly may not necessarily promote a longer youth although challenging myself in hopes of beating an odd’s end could rectify such an endless opinion. The opinions of others could easily dictate our very own eyesight. Producing a more clearer perception of the person we could deny without observing the magnifying glass. We’re the outer shell constantly worrying about the opinions of others…. when the opinions may never lead to a justifiable perspective.

– C.A. Thomas

Self Doubt

You’re worth a hello, a good morning text, a hug squeezable for the difference you make in another’s world. You’re worth a “thinking of you”, an “I miss you” response because of the influence of enjoyment you have on people. Easily defeating yourself with much doubt, robbing your desires of feeling beautiful in the eyes of the person who deserves every detail of you. How you make others feel is only a glimpse of how amazing you truly are….. you’re the one who’s too good for anyone yet you love with such humility and deserve the very best someone should be eager to deliver. Self doubt is a mirror, only you can modify the errors needed to present the reflection of how people view you.

– C.A. Thomas

Surrounded Lessons

Lessons walk upon us daily. We lose more than winning, we cry more than smiling while projecting unknown anger amongst the ones who rely on us for guidance. Although at times we feel we’ve solved the answers life somehow reminds us that we’re only a lesson in hopes of teaching another.  Our struggles and troubles could easily become the music to another’s listening, hoping the tunes will elaborate a much suitable lesson.  Even as we mature the lessons are repeated this time generating from a much younger audience. “Surrounded Lessons”, exactly what we’re destined to be….. although mistakes are made we ourselves are never the mistake, only the lessons we surround the very people who need it more than ourselves.

– C.A. Thomas

2018

Each year teaches me something, brings me something, have brought me tears in the midst of anger and confusion in the balance. Change has arrived earlier than expect, the change has triggered my way of thinking on how people and situations should be approached more so minus the anger. Calmness I have chosen to inherit, establishing such a tranquil of peace that harbors my mind as it casts beautifully across the ocean. 2018 is a year of resetting the mishaps, the failures, the misunderstandings in hopes of achieving the results anticipated. 2018 may be a number, for it is the experience that should progress change within us all.

– C.A. Thomas

Contagious Smile

Nothing more contagious than a woman’s smile. The honesty, her thoughtfulness, the effort she puts in delivering an incredible view of total enriching substance. Her smile weakens my words, increasing each heartbeat I feel with a few skips of excitement between flutters of uncontrolled anticipation. A smile I wanna kiss, a smile I desire in touching with each glance paused within each blink of a rehearsed scene over and over. I love your smile for it is a part of you….. I wanna know every tiny detail of you simply because….. I love you.

– C.A. Thomas